Valentines DayI warned you didn't I?It was futile to even attemptTo make me happyI told youIt was a bad ideaIt was best to leave me aloneI emphasized the riskSaying whenever I was too happySomething would be taken awayI already knewThat it would beLike the pastThat I would be aloneAnother dreadful Valentine's Day
If I fellYour soul is dark.Tinted with angerAnd regret.A light that flickersFrom over use orOver exposure.Your mind is sharp,But your outlook on lifeIs so bleak.Thinking of the wrongsAnd never the rights,I wish you could see.Your heart has beenSo heavily calloused.Scarred tissue beingThe only separation between Yourself and the opportunityTo attain one of life's greatestSatisfactionsSo cold and alone.And claiming to never have lovedOr to have ever felt it.And yet there's something differentAbout our connection.So I ask youIf I fell in love with youWhat would you do?
2-12-11I laid on my bed with the computer in my lap. Humming that hum that always haunted me when I was alone in the dark. It was too quiet and my hands were by my head in my hair, that had been strewn about on my stack of pillows. The soft white and blue pillows that were thin and ripped with the oldest lighthouse I had seen. My blanket was over my legs as my laptop warmed them up pleasantly, and then a sudden chill ran up my spine.Quite frankly, I was bored and uninspired.The page on my laptop had been blank for three hours now and I had been laying in this rather comfortable posture for about maybe one. My arms relaxed around my upper body and head, and my eyes just staring at the screen.The silence again started to buzz and stir as I refused to move my hands until I had an idea. My head felt lazy, relaxed, and almost as if it had no feeling.I continued to sit there in my thoughts of depression and numbness until I realized that I could maybe write about it.My fingers to the keys I be
1-14-11Your eyes flutter in a dizzy phaseMy hands try to caress and protectYour sodden faceNot being able to feel yourOnce soft skin has reminded meOf your unforgiving sinsThat I had somehow forgottenYour cheeks blurry with undefined tearsYou try to comprehend what has happenedIn the last four yearsWhere was I going andWhat was I hoping to getOut of all of this mess?You're so confused, if only I could have seenStreaks of ignoranceAnd unrefined blissFill the empty carcass that I see before meYour hands striving and eagerly huntingFor more than you could havePossibly realizedAnd now you just keep staring at meAs if I have all the answers likeI used to have, arms wide openFor your saddening and much needed embraceBut now I wonder
Mirror, mirror on the wallWhy didn't you catch meWhen I was destined to fall?