1-9-12I see this light.It's the most beautiful thing in my life and I want to bask in it's glory. Absorb it's rays into my imperfect skin and let it radiate from my fast pacing heart. Shining and beaming on anyone that comes near me, letting me be the person I want to be, and help others and be with others like I've always wanted.But then, I realize,I'm not allowed to touch it.I can only see it in my mind.An exotic bird of sorts, staring at me with it's ebony eyes with a straight expression. Unafraid, and yet, aware.And as I try to approach it's wonder,It flees.It leaves me alone here in the dark, dense, forest.Forever.I never escape, it just taunts me with it's sheer freedom. Just the fact that it has the ability to fly elsewhere beckons at me with jealousy.Cut off it's wings.A sudden impulse.This feeling... what is this? I don't understand...Cut off it's wings. Use them yourself.I'm scared.I don't want to do anything like that. Why am I thinking these things?